My Little Family

Some of my favorite guys. Grandpa always looks at them with great pride, he loves just being with them. I am so pleased they have grown into caring, giving and loving young men. In spite of some bad role models they are turning into wonderful men. My other two grandchildren are the same, I couldn't ask for more. They are talented too, I am a lucky grandma! Now that we can, we will be spending more time visiting. I am looking forward to the holidays this year. We are a small family, but I can trust them all with my heart.   

A visit with grandsons

Two of my grandsons came for a visit, it makes me cry. Not for any reason except I love and miss them so. They played a game of golf with old grandpa, let me hug them and made my daughter smile. Nate and Nick (Nick Dee's son) have always had my heart. Nate is my son's and he reminds me of his dad. I miss him more than I can say. He has been mad at me for many years, but it never changes my love for him. We had a great visit, I wish we lived closer. A drop by from time to time would be the best, I will just take what I can get. I love you guys and miss my other two grandchildren, grandma loves you. 

Lemon Tree

When we moved to California I wanted a lemon tree, so first thing I bought one. I love it and it is growing bigger every time I look at it. My tree has about 5 lemons on it, one a good size. I am looking forward to picking my first pretty yellow lemon. Yellow is so cheerful to me and full of hope. We will get around to putting the rocks down as soon as we can. I have too many health problems to get out of the way first. The very last thing I will do is paint my front door red. A red door is for a welcome to my home. I have so many things to do on my bucket list. I will have to get that written out. I wish I were closer to my family, but they can come visit any time.  

Karma can be a bitch!

It;s hard to deal with all the things that are going on in our lives. With both Dee and I going through cancer scares and more medical things ahead, we are dealing with so much stress. We will be fine and are looking forward to great things to come. I have to say I am worried about the new knee, it will be so much pain  and work to get back on my feet. I have three doctors to see for pre-op. I have real good doctors so I have faith in them. I worry about Dee though, she has so much to catch up on. She should have had most of it done, but she didn't get to doctors until now. She can;t get things done for lack of money. I wish I could help her more. She was married to one of those guys that thought he made the money, so he came first. She needs cloths, a car and get back to school. He took so much from her and left her so broken. I am to blame for so much, I looked the other way thinking it would have made things worse. He had a big head and no skills. We all lied to cover for his weakness's. I will never do that again, it just made fools of us all. We had a break in and some things were taken. I don't want to put the blame any where I can't prove, but we will find out and it will be taken care of. Karma is sometimes an evil bitch!!!! I am trying to keep up with positive thinking and meditation. I want to think their are better people out there and all will work out. Time will tell!   

New Yellow Paint

The old color, blue, green, gray. It depends on which side your looking at. The years and the sun have taken a tole on the color. It needed a new color and yellow with white trim is just right. 

 The front and the shed will come first. The shade will tell us what side to work on. The white trim looks great. New front and all that white will look so clean, I love it.

 All the yellow is done on the front, it looks so nice. The yard will have to wait until the painting is done. Rock and more plants will finish off the perfect look. We will be putting up a fence and the old garden gate. The entrance will be great, can't wait to get it all done. We still have more to do in the house, So much work!!!!!
  

 It doesn't look like what we moved into. The weeds and different entrance, no walk way. So much work! I can't wait for the end and some fun in California.
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Screen Door and Another Sale

 After that last blogg I decided to lighten up. I am so working on being a nice person and sometimes it can be a challenge. Anyway, Howard built me a new screen door for the back door. It helps keep the bugs out and the dogs in. I have so much to do and this helps so much. Thank you my husband. 
 

Well, back to the storage unit again. I am lined up for another sale under the freeway. I am not ready at all and a little worried I won;t be ready. I only have one month that I can do this, I will be getting  a new knee which screws up my summer. It is along recovery and the house, yard and storage has to be done. I can be a bit of a fuss bunny, making it hard on my care givers (husband & daughter). I guess I should say I am sorry before it all happens! Sorry!!!!! If you look close at the picture you can see a turkey running off. He was checking out my stuff when he came by. I will start tomorrow and get it all done, keeping figures crossed!!!!!

Being Sick Is Hard

I hate to think about the negative things in this world. When I do it makes me feel so petty, but sometimes it just clears my mind to let it all go. I meditate to help with all the daily problems and the pain I am going through. Ms is very hard to deal with as I get older. The shots are so painful, but I have more lesions on the brain and they do help. I have had my MS for most of my life, starting with migraines as a small child. With all the other things that can go wrong it has made them all much worse. It causes depression because of the problems in the brain. I am sure my husband would say I am a pain in the butt, but he loves me through all my health problems, I am a lucky woman to have him, but then again he is lucky to have me too! Together we make a whole, as one always. I wish my dear daughter was as lucky, her marriage fell apart. She is back with us now, some days are good and she makes the plans for school, she wants to go forward. Other days she is very sad and lost, these days break my heart. The worst days are when she cries most of the time, nothing we can say helps. The health problems are getting too much for her to handle and we are so little help. She may have MS, we will not know yet, the pain is so overwhelming. Now the breast cancer scare. We will hold our breath and her hand. She feels like someone is missing, I know how she feels, I would be the same. The test she will be put though are so scary and the results can be so hard. I will love her through it all. This among other things make me hate her husband or soon to be ex-husband. He left her knowing about all her health problems, her teeth are breaking and she will have to get new ones (mine did the same thing, an MS thing), her eyes are bad and she need new glasses, the breast lumps, her hips and leg pain (the same as mine) and the depression that goes along with many medical problems. It is such a hard time, I know I have been through them to. She has a few other issues and I have some that differ, but live can be so hard for some. I know there are so many that suffer more, but that doesn't help when it;s late at night and in a very painful place. You need that loving hand and poof, hes gone! He doesn't help by telling her she stole $3,000 of his money, she needed it to pay the doctor bills, he worked for it so she has no right to it. What a load of crap! We gave them $15,000 when we sold the house in Idaho, he did nothing to earn that money, one of the laziest men I have ever known. He spent it on himself and she got nothing. No, she got a laptop, washer and a drier (She had to take the washer and drier back, they needed the money). The way I figure it he owes me a butt load of money, he only got money because he was married to my daughter. He lied so good he had me fooled and he broke my child;s heart, I will never forget this lesson and I truly hope he learns a big lesson. We cared so much we looked the other way, another thing I will never forget. It all ended very sick, ucky and ugly! I hope so much for her and will be ther to help her along. Have a wonderful new life my sweet daughter.